The hell feeling.

  Last week or last last week, i was thinking that i've no more sad feeling while i saw you or thinking of you. That's such a good thing that finally i can solve it myself.. After a year more. I know this is a long time but finally i think i already solve it completely with my mental. But after yesterday, 1.12.12, i think i'm wrong again. I still get hurt after i saw you do something.. Sorry.. For you and also for myself, i lose again. The fight between mental and myself still can't win.. Lose again.

  I feel hurt, i feel dissapointed. Why i just can't like those girls so easily can put down the one the truly love before and move forward.. Sorry.....what i wish now is can faster after SPM examination, and after form5 annual dinner, then start my new life without you. Sorry for saying that but i really hope i can put down the one who don't love me anymore.. I feel so stupid on missing a guy who don't love me anymore. F myself, i really so stupid. I don't even know why i will put so much effort on loving a guy that i thought we can loving each other forever but actually exactly NO ! 

  Sorry for loving you. You're past now. You're past now, you're past now. I keep repeatIng and telling myself. I still can't take over.

Okay done.

Just let me release my feeling and i'm just going to sad tonight, no more next time.

Hopefully wish you will find a real girl that will love you with true heart, and don't play play in your relationship anymore.

Let go..
I will miss the memories between you and I.
Thanks god for giving me a nice memories that created by you and I. I won't forget it and will appreciate it. And now, you changed. Changed to the one i don't really know who you are. Nevermind, it had past.

Smile for my future life. :)